Its kinda like a mucus.
And like i said with regards to my eating............I dont really do that - i dont like food so i kinda only eat at the last minute -somedays its just a coupla packs of quavers and some protein drink.
I don't even know what to say here. You don't deserve help of any kind until you've tried helping yourself. But I'll be nice.
Here is what you are going to do:
1. Go to the grocery store and buy a bag of frozen peas, some frozen salmon and some potatoes. A gallon of milk to go with that, and some kind of quark or cottage cheese or something white and protein-ey.
2. Boil the potatoes with the peels still on them. Wash them first.
3. Thaw and fry the salmon in a frying pan. Add some spices that you like.
4. Put the frozen peas in hot water until they're completely thawed and a bit hot. Pour out the water, keep the peas.
5. Put all of this on a plate with a couple of spoonfuls of quark/cottage cheese/greek yoghurt. What you are looking at is some classic Swedish cuisine. (Though I realize it's not exclusively Swedish, you probably eat this all the time in the states as well)
6. Eat the entire plateful. Drink milk with it.
7. Go outside. Without smoking. Take note of how your body feels - capable. You're not tiring quickly. You're light on your feet. Four hours or so later you still feel like this - you're not nauseous or mucusey or tired or anything. You feel like you did when you were a child.
8. Do this every fucking day until you don't need to do anything but eat to feel good. This is what I did. You're headed the wrong way, son - I know what's down there and it's nothing you need or will want to keep with you.
9. Thank me later. Cheque accepted.
