Almost blacked out on the toilette today because of the pain. Heavy bleeding. Sometimes i have to go to the toilette 4-5 times in one hour. Its absolute hell. Cortison up to 40-0-20.
When i felt a little better for some time, i spent 10 mins on the Concept II Rower. Then 50 incline push ups. I feel like dying most of the time but i have to do some kind of exercising (if you can call it like that :icon_cry2 ). Otherways i would probably kill myself.
Bodyweight: 80 kilo.
I really dont know whats going on. The cortison is up,up,up. But it still gets worse. The pain is abnormal. There is no perspective. Only one medicament with hardcore possible sideeffects. Show is over soon.