This is another young man I fucked up and now I'm angry at a woman(and myself) type of thread. If you are tired at these type of threads you can move along. I'm drunk too. Story: I've have known a woman for maybe 4 months through a friend, where she is also living. Now we have a small number of common friends. It was instant attraction from start when we first saw each other when watching some movies at my friend's place(where she is living). We are kinda each other opposites in many ways. She is cute seemingly shy and innocent(yeah the story is going that way) while I'm having outgoing, offensive humour and have good perceived confidence. It seemed like a good match. After just seeing each other sporadically during the spring we started seeing each other every other day during July while our common friend was away. Some time before this point I turned off my tinder. We were not dating per se, but did alot of hiking, eating, we even went salsa dancing on one occasion etc. The last couple of weeks the courtly love escaled when we went on trips with our friends. We were very touchy-touchy, shared moments in the sunset type shit. But very courtly stuff. I did have a suspicion she was seeing someone. Usually, when I'm not infected by a woman's charm, I wouldn't ignore these types of suspicions, especially since my former tinder and dating life has left me very cynical about women in general. If you think someone is up, that is the case in 95% of the cases. Now, apparently, she's been fucking this fucking this fucking salsa dude she met dancing for a few weeks. She has used "salsa dancing" or "salsa sessions" as a synonym for fucking the salsa dude. Both salsa and fucking do require hip moments so I guess that's a pretty good way to put it. I can tell you my friends that I'm pretty upset. At her and myself. At myself for not going for the kill when I had the chance and for thinking that all women are not the same. And at her doing heavy emotional flirting while getting her latin rhythms somewhere else. Now, I would like some suggestions what to do. Our group was suppose to do something on friday, guess what activity salsa dancing. And for once I think she means real dancing and not a group fuck. If she is real devious that guy will be there. At this moment I feel like just going to my hometown a few hours away and fuck the brains out of an ex. I also think about staying here and go out and then fuck her friend(who wants me) or someone else in a desperate effort to make her upset(or maybe she doesn't even care) and rebuild my scattered ego. I'm also thinking about breaking all type of contact. OR I will just play around, play cool, fuck her sooner or later and dump her ass. Or just concede defeat and realise the sweet girl next door is a myth and all women are just never ending rational choice algorithms. Sorry for my emotional and drunken post. I will now go and pass out - or just jump on the first morning train.