He has been with me for 12 years. A lab/sheppard/collie mix that I named, Mojo. I've been noticing him slowin down over the past couple of months. Hard time getting up stairs. Appetite, not what it used to be. Weigh loss. Our walks slowly got shorter and shorter as the months passed. He had a bad nose bleeding condition that couldn't be helped. This morning it got pretty bad. Woke up with blood all over the place. He had this look on his face that pretty much said "we going for a walk?" 12 years in, and he still had that puppy like demeanor. Only with me, though. I always loved seeing that side of him. As much as I loved seeing that face, I knew this was the end. At the clinic, the vet walks in and right away, acknowledges the weight loss. 15 lbs since May. He still has size on him, around the waist area was thinner though. The blood starts flowing again. Hes sneezing, with every sneeze blood is coming out. The place is a mess. My eyes start to water, knowing what she is about to say. "He's suffering, I think it's best..." I cut her off and tell her to go ahead with it. Told her I wanted to be with him as he goes. Not a problem. We are moved to another room. They sedate him first to calm him down a bit. They come in, I'm holding him on my lap. I tell him that I love him and thank him for being my friend for the past 12 years. The process is fast. It kicks in right away as they are injecting. His breaths start to speed up a bit and than slows down. Until there is no more breath. He slowly slumps against me. There is no life left in him. I start to cry. My buddy is gone. Over the years I have lost a lot of friends and family. I'm and out of many relationships. Achieve certain goals just to go crashing back down. No matter how bad things got, his goofy face always made me laugh and always changed my mood. A walk later, I usually forget what was even bothering me. It will be tough moving forward. As I'm typing this, I realize that I would usually be taking him on his walk right about now. I don't even know where I'm going with this. I just wanted to share.