first dog got hit by motorcycle and dragged up road under the sidecart
my mother took her to vet and put her down
she told me the dog just died on its own at the vet
second dog attacked my friend, bc it thought it was protecting me
was a nasty bite that went through the muscle in her arm, had to put the dog down
third dog lived to be old, and also had to be put down
but first he had continuous strokes or something, and while he was still alive, he wasnt really conscious bc certain areas in his brain had shut down. it was like a living corpse sort of thing, was very sad
and tbh that was fucking horrific, bc through the strokes he was screaming and clearly in a lot of pain ):
but days before he died he knew, and went around the house and made sure to spend time with all of us, including the other animals. and before the strokes started he went out onto the porch and just stared off into the yard for one last time. i went out and sat with him, realizing what was going to happen, then when he came back in i had to go to my room a moment, to cry tbh
have had terrible luck with dogs tbh but i still love them and would like to have another some day