Guys i think im suffering from depression again

[Hatuwkoi]

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder before, feels like these shits coming out again.
Loneliness, financial and family issues, fucking college stress (i couldnt graduate and my scholarship is about to end idk how to fucking pay this honestly, cant say i keep my curiosity about my field), there is this constant pain and heaviness on my chest. And i dont cry at all i just feel mentally frustrated and tired. Started smoking cigars time to time while going nightwalks listenning lo fi stuff, only time i kinda feel relaxed and chill.
I need a moment to chill, i need some space guys. I think about suiciding and ending my misery many times of my days. Fucking hell.

 

[FierceRedBelt]

Please seek help.

 

[Hellowhosthat]

Are you on any medication dude? If not get something prescribed and use the mental breathing room it gives you to break down your problems into smaller ones and try and solve them one at a time.

Sherdog has got your back

 

[fungi]

Get some help.
Some therapy.
You can do it.

 

[GoofMaster93]

Be chill bro and just try your best. You have to find a new hobby/interest like a new video game or something to keep your mind occupied. Maybe try having 2 puffs of a joint and see if that helps, I know it does for me

 

[Hatuwkoi]

Get some help.
Some therapy.
You can do it.

Man i think about going to hospital but all they do is giving antidepressants, i dont want them those things will break me completely. Government provides theraphy like once a month or something.

 

[Cole train]

Dont off yourself, seek help and maybe someday things will be good again.

Offing yourself is final and it removes the chance of things being good again.

 

[wlu.29]

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder before, feels like these shits coming out again.
Loneliness, financial and family issues, fucking college stress (i couldnt graduate and my scholarship is about to end idk how to fucking pay this honestly, cant say i keep my curiosity about my field), there is this constant pain and heaviness on my chest. And i dont cry at all i just feel mentally frustrated and tired. Started smoking cigars time to time while going nightwalks listenning lo fi stuff, only time i kinda feel relaxed and chill.
I need a moment to chill, i need some space guys. I think about suiciding and ending my misery many times of my days. Fucking hell.

Hang in there bud

Please talk to someone, hopefully you have access to professional help

 

[Eiffel-sixtyFight]

Try cheering up.

That helped me. Good luck ts.

 

[fungi]

Man i think about going to hospital but all they do is giving antidepressants, i dont want them those things will break me completely. Government provides theraphy like once a month or something.

There are pro-bono therapists.
Look them up online.

Sometimes antidepressants are helpful.
You need to find the one that works for you.

 

[Hellowhosthat]

Man i think about going to hospital but all they do is giving antidepressants, i dont want them those things will break me completely. Government provides theraphy like once a month or something.

Antidepressants don't break you, you have to monitor your mood carefully while on them though. However there's several different types and it might just be that the ones you were on before didn't work for you.

If it wasn't for anti depressants I have no doubt I'd be dead.

 

[Cole train]

Heres pink drummer to cheer people up

 

[TribalDrumz]

Seek help

hookers and blow in Peru or some ayahuasca shit can help trust me.

 

[Hatuwkoi]

Fuck i love you guys, no homo.

 

[Cole train]

Seek help

hookers and blow in Peru or some ayahuasca shit can help trust me.

Would have been my first advice as well but corona

 

[Bubzeh]

It’s not an easy time for anyone. Don’t do anything stupid.

 

[Hellowhosthat]

It’s not an easy time for anyone. Don’t do anything stupid.

I know you mean well with this, but "don't do anything stupid" isn't good advice for someone who's feeling suicidal because it can make them feel worse.

Not trying to be a dick, you're a good dude, I've just done a fair bit of mental health training and been through a fair bit of treatment over the years and that's something they make a point of.

 

[It-is-what-it-is]

I was super stressed out at university too. Dropped out, now I'm as relaxed as can be. (Although I'm unemployed too so you win some you lose some).

Not saying you should drop out, but it's an option.


I used to take everything in life very seriously, study hard for exams and shit. I got good grades but I felt like shit. If I knew i'd be an unemployed loser at the end I would've been relaxed from the start.

My life now is way better in terms of my mental health than when I had all the stress from school. Idk if this is any use to you but my situation was similar to yours at some point.

 

[eternaldarkness]

just do crazy shit until you nearly die.
a near death experience is nearly guaranteed to improve your passion for life (or so a friend tells me)

 

[ineverpost]

Loneliness, financial and family issues, fucking college stress

Get on meds so you can get through the day. You need to break down your problems into smaller issues so you can actually tackle them. I would invest most of your energy into developing a career. Contrary to what some people say, money solves a lot of fucking problems.