So I have become 100% focused on training and it's has gone well.due to me having previous bjj I have been thrown to the wolves for the past two weeks I haven't fought one white belt few blues but mainly purples and blacks and to say I have been fighting for my life is an understatement beating after beating. Now I'm a big guy so losing in physical events is something new to me my main question is when does it get a lil easier to get offensive or feel like I'm more than just a rag doll?