I first began BJJ in 2002. That only lasted about a year before I gave it up due to issues involving family and finances. I finally got back into BJJ in 2008. This was cut short after about six months because I required two surgeries on my nose after taking an errant knee to the face while rolling. It feels like too much to get into now, but I basically had to have a radical nose-job to make it look and function normally again. After recovering, I went to a few classes and found myself completely gun-shy to ever engage. My first real injury in BJJ had a major psychological impact on my training. I told myself I'd get over it, but I realized I was losing any interest or motivation to train. Now a year and a half or so later, I've gotten the itch to train again, but the trepidation is still lurking in there. I realize very well that it's just part of training, but I grew up doing martial arts, and this was the only time I ever got hurt. I've also never been in worse shape in my life since the injury. I've put on nearly 30 pounds. Getting back in the game now seems a little intimidating. One thing that is motivating me is that I will be turning 30 in January. I'm not old, but I'm not a young kid anymore, either. I feel like if I ever want to get anywhere in BJJ, I don't have much time to waste. I know the only answer to my problem is to just suck it up and go, but I'm curious if anyone else here has had to deal with this sort of thing. Have any of you ever had these kind of emotions after long layoffs from injury? Or just after a long layoff with out an injury. How did you deal with it? Any input would be appreciated.