So a junkie comes in and says "hey can I borrow your expensive electronics?"
You say "sure, and heres $140 too"
Why did you even let her take it? why not tell her to play it at your house, why does she need it at her house? why cant you buy your own drugs?
Did you read the whole thread?
I've known this chick since we were little kids. She came to my house, gave me some percocets to help with the withdrawal because she knows how opiate addiction feels. While she was here (on my doorstep having a cigarette with me) she asks if she can borrow my PS3 because she doesn't own any gaming systems, since I've known her for a very, very, very long time, I thought I could trust her because she was like a little sister to me. We were very close. It wasn't like I met this girl a few months ago or something and we were drug buddies, no, we were very close, like family. Even before drugs, we used to hang out all the time.
I told her I wanted to get a bit more of the H to hold me over for the weekend until I get the precrip on Tuesday. So I give her $140 and she asked me if she can use a little bit of it for personals, and since I knew her since we were little kids, I said sure, especially because she had helped me out to begin with.
I say sure, and she tells me to come over a little bit later so I can grab a 'point' for free, so I do, and she tells me she'll get me the rest around 8-9 AM and she'll bring it to my house, so I say OK and go back home,
Around 8-9, I message her and ask her what's going down? are things going to work out or what? what's the deal? and she doesn't reply. Turns out she blocked me and I don't know why.
Over so many years, we were close friends and I felt I could trust her. Yes, she's a drug addict, but me and her were always close and not once did we ever have an issue with each other.
So knowing she blocked me after a friend told me he still has her on his FB, I got upset and realized that, basically, she's screwing me over, after so many fucking years, her and I being like family, I can't believe she's fucking ME over.
I go to her place, ask if I can have my PSN back, and she literally runs into the house. By the time, I knew, 100%, she ripped me off and it kinda hurt because of our history together. It was painful. Drug addict or not, not all drug addicts are like this, but unfortunately she is. To the point that she'd steal my PSN after I let her fucking borrow it because I saw her as family and gave her that $140 to get US drugs, but she kept it for herself, along with the PSN, which she probably sold for more drugs or something.
We're both addicts, but she fell way worse than I did and ever will. I didn't expect it because of our history together, I know her so damn well and I never expected something like this from her. I could see her doing it to some random asshole but not to me, someone who has known her basically her entire life, grew up with her, helped her through one of, if not the toughest time of her life (losing her actual brother to suicide).
So yesterday we were cool, earlier today we were cool, then out of nowhere, it's like I don't matter anymore. Like she snapped her fingers and that was that. All those years, and that's that.
It hurts because it's like losing a family member, that's basically it.
She isn't some girl I met a short while ago and was just "some nice guy" that gave her my PS3 to borrow and, "Oh, here have some money so you can get fucked up as well," I let her borrow the PS3 because I trusted her like I did for many years and never had an issue, and the money was for US and the other time I gave her money, it was perfectly fine. She followed through no problem.
Is that too hard to understand?