Dedication to my mother: Read my last post please

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  1. BustaHimes

    BustaHimes Power Overwhelming

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    I've had a very emotional night tonight, I was looking at pictures of my mother tonight while listening to music that reminded me of her.
    It hurt like when it first happened, wishing I could just hug her one time and talk with her like we used to, but knowing it will not happen in my mortal life again.

    At 21 years of age, I was at work when I got the call from my father. Rush to the hospital, your mother has fallen ill out of nowhere. When the doc came out with that look, I pushed him out of the way and ran to her room.

    I touched her and she felt ice cold and I let out a scream that shook the place. My 40 year old mother, my best friend was no more. I didn't even get one last hug, one last smile, one last kiss or one last chance to tell her I loved her. She died all alone.

    Sherdog you were there for me before and I know you will be here for me now.
    Help me to dedicate this thread as a way to let her live forever.
    RIP forever mom

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  2. sh1tehawke

    sh1tehawke Purple Belt

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    Sorry for your loss my friend. I lost my mother in December to cancer so I know what you're going through and it's awful. You just got to be strong, be there for you're family and you'll get through it.

    the best memorial you can give is to live a life that will make her proud.
     
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  3. Anung Un Rama

    Anung Un Rama The Right Hand of Doom Platinum Member

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    Nice OP, ts.

    My worst nightmare and my mother is 84.

    RIP TS' Mom.
     
  4. shanegotu11

    shanegotu11 Brown Belt

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    Rip. Ugh, I wish time could freeze in a sense.
     
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    Socialhandgrenade Silver Belt

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    Ts you just brought genuine tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry for your loss and I can't imagine how you're feeling. Losing my mother would be the worst thing to happen, she's my best friend and has never judged the stupid crap my brother or I have done. Hope you're ok buddy, just hang in there and know she loved you unconditionally
     
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  6. Concrete

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    Sorry for your loss TS.

    I cannot even comprehend the pain I would feel losing my mother. Gonna give her a call tonight. She always tells me to call more.
     
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    BisexualMMA Don't Put My Name in the Name of Steroids!

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    Sorry to hear, brother. I'm in.
     
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    MarloStanfield The Wild Colonial Boy

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    i dont know you but i can tell that she would of been so proud of you, fuck im proud of you mate.
    embrace her life tonight and dont dwell on the things that you had no control over.
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    Flemmy Stardust King of Lea

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    I was right around the same age when my dad died, and every once in a while you're going to have days like this. There's not a day that goes by when you don't think of them, and it's not always going to be remembering the good stuff.

    I particularly get bummed now thinking about how he never got to meet any of his grandchildren, and how much he would have loved them.

    I often have dreams where he's still alive and waking up and coming to the realization that he's still gone is a gut shot every time.
     
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    Vomit Inducing Brutality Injured By Horsemeat Platinum Member

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    Sad stuff...I think about my parents passing sometimes and it makes me uneasy but I know one day it will eventually happen.

    You just can never prepare yourself for it...
     
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  11. BustaHimes

    BustaHimes Power Overwhelming

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    Yes please do. You may not realize how important each conversation is
     
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    Jesus Freak Banned Double Yellow Card

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    In b4 some sarcastic, immature loser ruins this thread!

    Joking aside, as difficult as it is to maintain regular contact w/ our parents, especially if we're trying to figure our own lives out, we need to make that extra effort.

    Otherwise, the "I could've, would've, should've(s)" will accompany you LONG after they perish.
     
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    the bond between a mudda & her son is truly special. everyone that reads this thread, make sure to think of the message the TS is sending & tell your mudda, fadda too, that you love them.
     
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    It was the worst thing that will ever happen to me.
    Thank you for sharing some of the pain with me
     
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    rearnakedchoke Suck it!

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    Damn bro ... Sorry for your loss ... I have to say, i am not that close with my mom since we had a falling out ... Still see her and stuff, but i dont go over to her house and she rarely sees my kids ... She wants to, im just not big on forgiveness and stuff .. I sound like a doichebag, but i dont think i am ... But back to you man ... Stay strong bro
     
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    Hope you are ok, have a like to make you smile.
     
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    shanegotu11 Brown Belt

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    Is it really worth not talking? Idk how old you are or your situation. I just know when its final, it is final. There is no re do's in death, no flipping over the hourglass.

    Is it worth not speaking and holding a grudge? My family when upset says mean, and at times vile insults. It isn't worth not speaking to them or loving them.
     
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    I can't express how sorry I am to hear of your loss. Unfortunately I know the pain of bereavement and it hurts like no other. Some how we find a way to carry on.

    Don't be afraid to reach out for help. I was lucky enough to find help from a bereavement counselor at my local church, even though I'm not religious. I was very glad for the help as it got me through the worst time of my life.

    Feel free to hit me up in pm any time.
     
  19. BustaHimes

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    Even if you have a grudge with momma you shouldn't punish your kids for it.
    I hope you and your mom can find peace one day. Even if she's hurt you, she still brought you into this world and will always care for you
     
  20. FeloniousMonk

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    We will ALL make that journey alone, my friend...

    Rest assured, with producing and upholding
    such a passionate, thoughtful and loving son...
    she was well equipped and well fortified with
    love, in this life. Such things make the journey
    of life easier to navigate.


    ...EVERY journey of life. Through all it's stages...

    RIP
    Stay up doggy
     
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