Day 3...

[IloveTHIS]

I don't know, bro. I'm pulling for you but wouldn't this detox have been a whole lot easier if you got a bed in rehab or even just a local hospital for a few days?

I've heard that benzos are the worst to detox from because your body doesn't really miss them at first because they stay in your system so long. The worst of the benzo withdrawal can take up to a week. Then you could suffer from insomnia that will make it very difficult to sleep. And then, when you do nod off you might suffer from night terrors. You also might tremble uncontrollably & suffer from seizures. That's why the DEA is making it so tough for doctors to prescribe Benzos these days. They're highly addictive & hell to get off of.

So, if I were you I'd reconsider admitting yourself if things get much worse.

What type of opiates & benzos were you taking? Were they prescribed or were buying them off the street?

I appreciate the concern but trust me, I'm not in any danger with the benzos. opiates have always been my massive problem. benzos, I pick up and go fucking insane with for one, two, three weeks or however long and then might not touch them again for a week or two with out issue.

as for the rehab thing, I would rather just suffer in my own home.

and none of this stuff is prescribed by a doctor. thats how it started, until they yoinked them all away from me after my second OD and I found other means to get it.

 

[Fedorgasm]

In my experience the physical withdrawals only last 3 days so you're about to be through the worst of it.

Take that with a grain of salt though because my experience is only what I've seen in movies plus the one time I quit meth

 

[NoGoodNamesLeft]

im no doctor but cant quitting benzos cold turkey like kill a person with seixures
and if homeboy isnt eating or sleeping thats doubly bad
stay safe sherbro

 

[IloveTHIS]

In my experience the physical withdrawals only last 3 days so you're about to be through the worst of it.

Take that with a grain of salt though because my experience is only what I've seen in movies plus the one time I quit meth

the physical pain, stomach discomfort, anxiety, temperature fluctuates etc I can deal with. but I am praying to FUCK I finally get some food down and even 1 hour of sleep. the lack of sleep is really doing a number on me right now

im no doctor but cant quitting benzos cold turkey like kill a person with seixures
and if homeboy isnt eating or sleeping thats doubly bad
stay safe sherbro

wont happen. I abuse em often, but not physically dependent on em. just opiates and you cant die from opiate withdraw

 

[dc007]

Which ones didnt you give up?

Beer and nicotine

 

[hillelslovak87]

Stay in there Sherbro/Shermam.

Your health is always worthwhile, and anything worthwhile requires pain. Just keep pushing, and remember all that pain? It's your mind trying to trick you into hurting your body. Deny it.

 

[sweetviolenturg]

I appreciate the concern but trust me, I'm not in any danger with the benzos. opiates have always been my massive problem. benzos, I pick up and go fucking insane with for one, two, three weeks or however long and then might not touch them again for a week or two with out issue.

as for the rehab thing, I would rather just suffer in my own home.

and none of this stuff is prescribed by a doctor. thats how it started, until they yoinked them all away from me after my second OD and I found other means to get it.

OK, well, take care, man. Try to stay hydrated as much as possible & stay strong.

Peace.

 

[IloveTHIS]

Stay in there Sherbro/Shermam.

Your health is always worthwhile, and anything worthwhile requires pain. Just keep pushing, and remember all that pain? It's your mind trying to trick you into hurting your body. Deny it.

thanks bro. not gonna lie there has obviously been moments where the thought of giving up has crossed my mind. but then I immediately remember how much better off I would be right now if I had the strength to do this so many years ago. but the past is the past, cant go back and change that but I can make damn sure I don't fail right here and now

 

[seatea]

The best of luck to you.

 

[IloveTHIS]

Looks like you need a Methadone Clinic.

absolutely fucking not

 

[Yoel Bromero]

Good for you!

 

[IloveTHIS]

After being prescribed enough OC to nearly stop a elephant it put me through College.

I’ll be clean from all opioids for decade next year.

fuck yea brother, that is amazing and extremely inspiring!

Ive just heard a lot of horror stories about methadone. and I'm ready to get off this rollercoster right now.

 

[Darth_Inv1ctu5]

Well my sherbrethren I have reached a milestone I honestly did not think I would ever come close to. Cant really explain it but randomly a few days ago I woke up and decided enough is enough and to finally put the fucking drugs down and stop killing myself. Sure I had thought about it a thousand times before but something about this time was just different. A moment of clarity I guess. Somehow I had zero doubt in my mind I would not fail this time.

So here I am on day 3 of being clean and not throwing junk into my body. Havent been able to make it this long, 3 days, in over 10 years. Hell I honestly could not even tell you how many years its been since I had 1 single day free.

my pupils are absolutely massive. I havent been able to sleep more than 40 minutes total these 3 days. Lost count of how many times I've vomited. my muscles have been spasming/cramping BAD. and maybe worst of all, the thought of food, any food in the world, sounds absolutely repulsive. I cant even take a bite of anything with out heaving. it feels like my entire body is violently shaking even if I'm 100% certain I'm not moving at all Im ice cold yet profusely sweating. basically I feel like absolute death. Im not religious but all I can do is pray this is as worse as its going to get. but the funny thing is despite feeling so unfathomably horrible, life seem brighter than it has in many years. I find myself just imagining what this new me could be...what I could turn my future in to when I have 10 days, 30 days, 6 months, a year, 10 years free. before nothing in the world seemed more pointless and annoying than thinking about my future. I didnt want a future.


just gonna keep knocking down one day at a time and get it done. long road ahead, and I definitely am not going to say I'm "recovered" because I havent given in for a whole 3 days. but I'm gonna appreciate each little step....in a weird sadistic way I almost enjoy how absolutely hellish mentally and physically this is. because it is going to burn it into my brain to never, ever have to do it again because of relapsing. but hollyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy fuck this sucks



love u guys. sorry if this post is a little rambling. I'm sleep and food deprived and emotional.

tldr: I been fukkin up for long time, finally decided to no longer fukk up

Son, you can do it. There's no doubt in my mind that you can. If you need someone to talk you out of being stupid, dm me any time - I'll give you a million reasons to stay straight. Not an empty promise.

 

[Drain Bamage]

but I am praying to FUCK I finally get some food down and even 1 hour of sleep. the lack of sleep is really doing a number on me right now

milkshakes, ice cream, reese; peanut buter cups, mcdonalds chicken nuggets with sweet sour sauce

eat junk food until you pass out

 

[90 50]

Well my sherbrethren I have reached a milestone I honestly did not think I would ever come close to. Cant really explain it but randomly a few days ago I woke up and decided enough is enough and to finally put the fucking drugs down and stop killing myself. Sure I had thought about it a thousand times before but something about this time was just different. A moment of clarity I guess. Somehow I had zero doubt in my mind I would not fail this time.

So here I am on day 3 of being clean and not throwing junk into my body. Havent been able to make it this long, 3 days, in over 10 years. Hell I honestly could not even tell you how many years its been since I had 1 single day free.

my pupils are absolutely massive. I havent been able to sleep more than 40 minutes total these 3 days. Lost count of how many times I've vomited. my muscles have been spasming/cramping BAD. and maybe worst of all, the thought of food, any food in the world, sounds absolutely repulsive. I cant even take a bite of anything with out heaving. it feels like my entire body is violently shaking even if I'm 100% certain I'm not moving at all Im ice cold yet profusely sweating. basically I feel like absolute death. Im not religious but all I can do is pray this is as worse as its going to get. but the funny thing is despite feeling so unfathomably horrible, life seem brighter than it has in many years. I find myself just imagining what this new me could be...what I could turn my future in to when I have 10 days, 30 days, 6 months, a year, 10 years free. before nothing in the world seemed more pointless and annoying than thinking about my future. I didnt want a future.


just gonna keep knocking down one day at a time and get it done. long road ahead, and I definitely am not going to say I'm "recovered" because I havent given in for a whole 3 days. but I'm gonna appreciate each little step....in a weird sadistic way I almost enjoy how absolutely hellish mentally and physically this is. because it is going to burn it into my brain to never, ever have to do it again because of relapsing. but hollyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy fuck this sucks



love u guys. sorry if this post is a little rambling. I'm sleep and food deprived and emotional.

tldr: I been fukkin up for long time, finally decided to no longer fukk up

Good for you man, I don’t have first hand experience with withdrawals other than trying to constantly nurse my ex through them when I found out she was on drugs bad.

I can clearly remeber on a third day for her, the color was coming back into her skin and it’s hard to explain but she looked more like “her” than she had in a long time. I was hopeful, and told her how good she was doing.

This was on a Sunday. Unfortunately when I went to work the next day, without me there talking to her friends on the phone it was too much and she fell right back into it AGAIN.

My advice, is that anyone and everyone that has anything to do with them, cut them immediately out of your life.

I think it’s the only way. She always relapsed due to this and just refused to cut all ties and communication with people that used.

 

[D Train]

fuck yea brother, that is amazing and extremely inspiring!

Ive just heard a lot of horror stories about methadone. and I'm ready to get off this rollercoster right now.

Come on man. You got this. Stay strong.

 

[genecop]

Can’t believe you can post on a forum, my experience 3 days in left me unable to do anything...but good luck..

 

[IloveTHIS]

Come on man. You got this. Stay strong.

I'm not going anywhere my man. with the support of my sherbros there is no breaking my will this time.

 

[90 50]

Not an expert or anything, but wouldn't a gradual taper be a better idea? Cold turkey could really mess you up with these drugs.

I don’t think a gradual taper is possible with these.

I’ve seen it tried 1000x, the pull stays continuously strong.

From all research going cold turkey on alcohol is more dangerous

I honestly think cold turkey is the only way to beat opiates.

 

[zapataxiv]

You got this man. And trust your gut... i had one of those moments a long time ago related some shizz. It was like night and day. I went from loving it and wanting to do it all day wveryday to knowing i would never touch it again. And i have held myself to it.
Fuck apple lofe is better without the cloud