Hey guys im just venting a little, dont mind me. I just find posting helps get things out and then I can move on. Dear Melissa It's been years since Ive last saw you, and I was in a bad place at that time. I acted as though I did not care about you anymore, but that was only to try and hide my true feelings. I remember the day I saw you again, it was my birthday and you had just started working there. Its almost as if the universe sent you to me as a present, a second chance. You told me you had just broken up with your fiance, and even though its terrible news to share, I could not even pretend to be upset. I think you could see me smile inside as I suddenly imagined our future together. I wanted to ask you out, but I still felt you deserved better. In the following months I acted distant and cold, and when I finally found out you were dating my friend at our workplace, it hurt. Nobody told me and it caught me off guard. I tried to act as though it didnt bother me, but inside I was torn. I continued to treat you as a second class friend, and slowly you stopped visiting my office to chat. I cant blame you. When I finally left the job and we said goodbye again, Im not sure you even cared by that point. Still, even today, I think about you often. I remember how you would cheer me up when I was feeling down, and you would do little things to show me you cared. A small kiss on the cheek, holding my hand or just sitting with me and looking in to my eyes. You always knew when something was wrong and you would let me know you were there. You were the one great thing in my life that kept me from going completely off the rails. I hope that today you have the life you deserve. I just wanted you to know you meant a lot to me, and you always will, and even if I acted otherwise or never said it, my feelings towards you have never changed. Goodbye and thank you for everything.