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Sounds dumb, but our Sherbro's suicide attempt hurt a lot.

We all hurt, we're all here for a reason... so share what's on your mind. This thread offers no judgement, only support (I hope).

I'll start.. I didn't buy coke tonight.. I felt a weird hold grab over me as soon as I got paid (I got paid in cash and I finished a 15 hour shift today) I went to the poolhall my dealer is at, and... I just left.

To everyone suffering and struggling, how did you get through the night?

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It's small steps like that, little decisions, made over and over again that make the difference.

I'm good these days, I have football and family. A shared cause with brothers in arms and a loving, happy, son, daughter and wife. The only darkness comes from my lack of career and I am used to kicking that can down the road.

My way out was always to get really really stoned when the worst hit me. I'd play computer games, smoke and hang out with people and it would see me through.

Back then I didn't work out, play sport or have a family. That's probably the key difference.

It'll always be there I guess. I just have to hope shit doesn't fall apart.
 
It's small steps like that, little decisions, made over and over again that make the difference.

I'm good these days, I have football and family. A shared cause with brothers in arms and a loving, happy, son, daughter and wife. The only darkness comes from my lack of career and I am used to kicking that can down the road.

My way out was always to get really really stoned when the worst hit me. I'd play computer games, smoke and hang out with people and it would see me through.

Back then I didn't work out, play sport or have a family. That's probably the key difference.

It'll always be there I guess. I just have to hope shit doesn't fall apart.

Well man you have a family, a son and a friggin daughter! that's so rad, and football? American or Euro?

I imagine it must be really hard to have a lack of career with a family. Do you have any plans or goals?
 
Well man you have a family, a son and a friggin daughter! that's so rad, and football? American or Euro?

I imagine it must be really hard to have a lack of career with a family. Do you have any plans or goals?

American, I started a team 4yrs ago, there's none within 50min drive of me. Me and a couple of guys. We pushed and pushed, turning up every Sunday with 4 or 5 people for years, making shit up as we went along. Now we have committee, 6 coaching staff over 50 players, a pitch with football posts and are joining the league (all things well) next year. It's the biggest achievement of my life, 90% of it was turning up.

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I have never been able to settle on something, paralysis through analysis, probably fear of failure. I currently do manual labour jobs plus doorwork and the pay is OK if infrequent. I rely heavily on a wife who has a good career.

I'm trying to come up with a small business idea atm so I can get off the manual work trip. Craft would be fine. If worst comes to worst I can build traditional stone wall well and push that angle but I would really like a nice office job for the winter as I'm getting on. I get beat up from football and really could do with sitting down most of that season.
 
I don't use drugs. Never did. Never had the urge or need for it. I have a few friends who do use it and I see the damage it does to their lives and their finance. There are plenty of organizations out there willing to help. Keep your mind busy my friend. My grandmother use to say "An idle mind is the devil's playground". Find a hobby, do some volunteer work, maybe even church. My passion was (is) in saving animals from abuse and neglect. Put myself in danger a few times to help save them from a life of misery. Much satisfaction after the rescue is done, a real 'high'. If you can't count on family, at least try to find and keep good company.
 
I think being needed is a crucial aspect in depression prevention. Fulfilling a need for the tribe and doing it well.
 
I used to get wasted every weekend and in the morning after binge on porn. Now im sober and every sunday i go play dungeons and dragons with childhood friends.

Getting even 1 hobby where you meet friends every week makes a big difference.

Edit. Thanks to everyone for sharing their stories
 
don't get rich if you are an addict, of any kind.
imagine what will happen if you will suddenly be able to afford all the things that make you sick.
now, imagine you are rich enough so that money is not an issue, so that you can afford to sponsor the addictions of your friends as well.
you will become a walking black hole of destruction.
 
Sounds dumb, but our Sherbro's suicide attempt hurt a lot.

We all hurt, we're all here for a reason... so share what's on your mind. This thread offers no judgement, only support (I hope).

I'll start.. I didn't buy coke tonight.. I felt a weird hold grab over me as soon as I got paid (I got paid in cash and I finished a 15 hour shift today) I went to the poolhall my dealer is at, and... I just left.

To everyone suffering and struggling, how did you get through the night?


I dont get why people are addicted to coke and drugs like that. I have tried coke twice and never got addicted to it. Dont be offended by this but are people who use Coke, Meth and these other drugs that weak? I am certain it is to some chemical unbalance but a strong individual would be able to kick the habit if they'd used it.
 
I dont get why people are addicted to coke and drugs like that. I have tried coke twice and never got addicted to it. Dont be offended by this but are people who use Coke, Meth and these other drugs that weak? I am certain it is to some chemical unbalance but a strong individual would be able to kick the habit if they'd used it.
you don't know what the fuck you are talking about.
 
Sounds dumb, but our Sherbro's suicide attempt hurt a lot.

We all hurt, we're all here for a reason... so share what's on your mind. This thread offers no judgement, only support (I hope).

I'll start.. I didn't buy coke tonight.. I felt a weird hold grab over me as soon as I got paid (I got paid in cash and I finished a 15 hour shift today) I went to the poolhall my dealer is at, and... I just left.

To everyone suffering and struggling, how did you get through the night?


The fact alone that it is an expensive habit alone deters me from ever trying it again and being an addict.
 
you don't use it for recreation.
you use it to feel normal.


What are you talking about? So the times you use it are the times you are normal? and the times you dont use it you are not? Thats why when users do something fucked up they blame it on drugs but thats normal right?

Yeah I have no idea what I am talking about...
 
I dont get why people are addicted to coke and drugs like that. I have tried coke twice and never got addicted to it. Dont be offended by this but are people who use Coke, Meth and these other drugs that weak? I am certain it is to some chemical unbalance but a strong individual would be able to kick the habit if they'd used it.
Maybe try coke more than twice before talking about how you never got addicted to it and while your at it do some meth for months and show us how astrong individual quits.

Addiction can take time and can take a individual awhile to even realise they are. It can start with using once a month then oh twice a month no biggie oh only on the weekends etc and before you know it they a completely dependent.
 
I don't use drugs. Never did. Never had the urge or need for it. I have a few friends who do use it and I see the damage it does to their lives and their finance. There are plenty of organizations out there willing to help. Keep your mind busy my friend. My grandmother use to say "An idle mind is the devil's playground". Find a hobby, do some volunteer work, maybe even church. My passion was (is) in saving animals from abuse and neglect. Put myself in danger a few times to help save them from a life of misery. Much satisfaction after the rescue is done, a real 'high'. If you can't count on family, at least try to find and keep good company.

I often legitimately enjoy the pureness of being under the influence. I feel good keyed up (obviously), it doesn't have the terrible jitters that adderol (sp) has and the does are more controlled. On weekend nights I'm out partying I moniter it like red bull consumption. My mind is always busy, and for some reason I always want to process things from a different perspective. Hell... when I write something I have a legitimate method to see it from multiple POVs.

I get what you see about being around animals. What do you honestly think about someone with a really bad anxiety disorder using a service dog? (Or anyone elses opinion for that matter) it seems to be socially frowned upon but..

A) Dogs are great
B) If it really helps someone that's badass.

I used to get wasted every weekend and in the morning after binge on porn. Now im sober and every sunday i go play dungeons and dragons with childhood friends.

Getting even 1 hobby where you meet friends every week makes a big difference.

Edit. Thanks to everyone for sharing their stories

I'll explain more in the last post but you're kind of right and glad you're doing better. But getting wasted every weekend is generally optimal for most. Hell, trying to only get fucked up on the weekends is really my ultimate goal.

don't get rich if you are an addict, of any kind.
imagine what will happen if you will suddenly be able to afford all the things that make you sick.
now, imagine you are rich enough so that money is not an issue, so that you can afford to sponsor the addictions of your friends as well.
you will become a walking black hole of destruction.
Valid point. If I have excess money, or friends wanting to throw down. I'll often by something mind altering to share. BUT the one thing I wonder about addiction is, we process chemical addiction and morality on an unfair scale.

I've been trying to cut back, and eventually cut out Nicotine the last few weeks ( I start that sweaty ass yoga shit next week) and I'll tell you this. Nicotine is a legal substance that has damaged my body far more than any other substance with caffeine right behind. Both of which are socially acceptable. I absolutely believe you can do "harder" drugs and not be an addict. It's the ol' American gun argument "if you really want to kill someone you'll use a rock", if you really want to kill yourself and bury your problems you'll chainsmoke at the local bar.


I dont get why people are addicted to coke and drugs like that. I have tried coke twice and never got addicted to it. Dont be offended by this but are people who use Coke, Meth and these other drugs that weak? I am certain it is to some chemical unbalance but a strong individual would be able to kick the habit if they'd used it.

You clearly don't understand addiction. For most people who struggle with addiction, it's that the substance they choose makes them feel "normal". A real addict can't function without their poison of choice. There was an interesting Cracked article about the amount of functioning crackheads which even for me is hard to fathom, but the reality is, most of us are addicted to some form of chemical, something that alters our conscience and it's rather hypocritical of so very many to look past their own addictions.
 


Unfortanately as this video points out that isn't something that's politically useful to the establishment. I mean you can see it in a few recent Sherdog threads with posters convinced drug addition leads to almost all homelessness and not the other way around
 
What are you talking about? So the times you use it are the times you are normal? and the times you dont use it you are not? Thats why when users do something fucked up they blame it on drugs but thats normal right?

Yeah I have no idea what I am talking about...

Did you ever see the "Freemium isn't free" episode of South Park? Satan has a good explanation of what happens to your brain when you are addicted to something.

 
Did you ever see the "Freemium isn't free" episode of South Park? Satan has a good explanation of what happens to your brain when you are addicted to something.


Maybe try coke more than twice before talking about how you never got addicted to it and while your at it do some meth for months and show us how astrong individual quits.

Addiction can take time and can take a individual awhile to even realise they are. It can start with using once a month then oh twice a month no biggie oh only on the weekends etc and before you know it they a completely dependent.

Did you ever see the "Freemium isn't free" episode of South Park? Satan has a good explanation of what happens to your brain when you are addicted to something.




Okay I understand what you guys mean by wanting to feel normal. And yeah I guess if I would have used it more often than only 2 times in my life I probably would have gotten addicted to it.

I cant say much about addiction since I have never been an addicted to any drugs or alcohol. Thanks for not being assholes though and trying to explain shit to me.
 
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