.... when you are a group of other guys start almost exactly the same time, roll for 6 or 7 months together and be very equally matched in your incompetence.... then all of a sudden, seemingly overnight, they pull far ahead of you and the memory of you subbing them or when not getting subbed by them every time you roll becomes nothing but a distant memory. It's almost like they're gone. My training partners I was growing alongside with all those months. They're gone and replaced by these new strangers. Worst part is I am far and away the most consistent student at our gym. I'm there 5 days a week sometimes two times a day. Yet they all.pulled ahead of me all of a sudden. Right now I also noticed my professor pairing me up when we roll with the brand new white belts or the few women we have. It's demoralizing and the only way I can roll with my previous partners is after class on open mat. It's just so demoralizing and depressing and I don't want to fall into this mental trap and BJJ is 90% mental confidence.