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Prior to 2013 it was to be married, raise kids somewhere close to my best bud, and our kids could grow up together. Mundane domestic life stuff. Hang out with my wife and my friends. After splitting with my wife I just didn't know anymore, and decided to focus on trying to better myself. Not even focus on relationships until I was in a stable place. But that's not really happening.
Now I don't know, and that question bothers me a lot. I don't enjoy my hobbies anymore. Everything I do or think just seems to make me sadder. Even when I try to daydream about just being where I want to be, I don't see anything anymore. Just nothingness. I'm still trying but mentally I've already accepted there is no happiness. And I know that as long as I'm thinking and feeling that way, that will be my reality.
What about in the very near term? Like a marshmallow? Or maybe skittles.