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How's heaven? Or Hell? Or wherever you're posting from?
Thought you were clippy for a sec there.
A good friend told me, I was Rick, where did I ern that, What did I do, why the respect.
I once got fired from a Chinese takeaway. Spilled chicken kung fu .
I just woke up from a dream, my older brother gave me 21 dollars to walk across the street into a prison, I was to hand the money to someone in the visiting area, and they would give me a small bit of heroin, which I was to then come out and hand to my brother. And for some reason, I was doing it. I was pissed at him, like okay, I’m gonna do this, but just watch when something goes wrong and they just keep me in there, and I don’t come out. Just watch, you fuck. Then I’m walking over to the prison, and just before I get to the door, I think... Fuck this, I’m not doing this. I’m not contributing to this. And I turn around. And then he’s standing there, and I’m like fuck this, fuck you, I’m better than this, you’re better than this. And some prisoners in the yard behind the fence are in earshot, so my brother responds talking tough, and I say yeah, show out, because all these guys are listening. They don’t respect you anyway you idiot, this is all a bad fucking joke. And I’m getting so pissed, that I wake up.
And I wake up and check my phone, to see a surely drunken voicemail from you I haven’t listened to yet, and I see you on here, drunken. And I get why some of the great poets and philosophers can’t see the difference between life and dreams.
I love you, quit the booze. Those are still the two truest things I can ever say to you.
You are a truly great guy, the world desperately needs them like you. But until you quit the booze, you will never be the big man, you will remain a lost spirit under the demon’s boot, perpetually being rubbed out like a done cigarillo. Break the fuckin cycle please. A lot of people miss you, especially you.
Alcohol is such a cunt.
My Uncle Bill was a genius card player, world river boat gambler. I grew up with all three of his kids, the closest to me genetically, I'll ever have Irish/Norweigan, with a splash of Crow, I live in MT and Crow are dark Indians, The Sioux are noble like the Mohicans, east side. My blood is Crow and that's as cute sound bite, and I've spent time trying to do something good appropriate, so...a teeppee and sweetgrass, cop sirens and big strapped Sioux. I walk alive either way. I walk through the cops to my huge Indian big man, he knows me, whatever's going down, I make the call and he's the universal joint, I therw up and he lined up, it was St.Pats, I take the first two, he said, I'm gonna take the left of expectation. (He didn't, but he Did_