I know exactly how I will die(if its in my hands)
a few xanax, then some heroin. after I regain enough consciousness to move, a shit ton more xanax and heroin. enough to ensure I wont wake up.
zero pain. zero worries. no fear. just bliss and never wake up again.
I don't keep any of that around considering my current situation(came really close to dying from this combo less than a year ago) but one day down the road, I will stock up on this, and if it ever looks like shit is really really going to hit the fan and life is going to be shit, me and my girl will go out this way.