There are 19s and even 26s with compliant barrels in Canada, but they cost more than a 17. IMO, not much point in getting something smaller than a 17, unless you really, really want one. Buy a Glock 17 or M&P 9mm, both are popular enough that you'll have lots of support when something needs replacing. If you're really that paranoid about shooting your duty gun, but can't schedule a shoot, buy a 9mm laser trainer and ask your Supt if you can bring your gun home for dry fire practice and practice on a light switch or pin a target up to your wall. It doesn't replace shooting, but it lets you pull your own trigger in a more meaningful way.