Originally Posted by HockeyBjj
Thanks for the kind words. I dropped the weight by tracking calories online and pre planning my days, making sure to get enough protein and keep the calories where they needed to be. I reached my goal weight 2 months ago and I'm still tracking everything I eat. My problem is I either eat perfectly, or binge like an idiot. It's a goal of mine to learn how to eat like a normal person again. Eat whole, clean foods when I'm hungry and not go overboard at social events. So far I'm scared of the idea on a subconscious level. Especially since I'm stupid and wanting to regain some of my lost muscle while holding on to or improving my abs that are visible for the first time in my life.
You looked really lean in your competition videos! Great work! I'd never be able to tell that you used to be fat. Your problems will be resolved in time. I used to be the same way. I was once 225lbs at 5'7". It was really bad. Binging was always my problem, too. It took me two years after I initially got lean to realize that I'm in a safe place, and that it won't kill me to be less strict on my regular diet if it means retaining my sanity.
I've also learned to eat around my mistakes. If I eat a Big Mac on a diet day, then I do damage control by eating protein-rich foods for the rest of the day so that I don't have to worry about hitting my macros. This way, my social life is never dictated by my diet, and I never feel pressured because I know that I can eat whatever I want, whenever I want, and still be in a deficit at the end of the day.